Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Memories

Today has been a different day. It is a day of thoughts and memories. Every year I try not to allow this day to get me down, but something inside of me just won't let it go.

Thirty years ago today my sweet Mom left her place here on earth and walked the streets of gold. She left suddenly and quickly. Which does not make it easy on family.

"Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted."

I know thirty years seems like a very long time, but when you are young and you lose your Mom, there is a hole left in your heart. It really does not heal, but it becomes like a wound that has a scar over it. You always know it is there.

With time the pain does subside, but the memories are still there. And I am so thankful that our loving Lord has come along side of me to lift me up on the days when the memories bring back pangs of pain.

"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

Spread your wings............

29 comments:

Aunt Spicy said...

What a beautiful post! May your heart continue to be lifted up!

karen said...

God Bless . Hugs to you.

Mandy said...

Hugs! God makes days like this to remind us that he's here to hold our hands and heal our hearts when we need him.

I hope you're finding comfort in your family today and every year xx

Nancy said...

I hope you find comfort in the many memories you have....

Quilt Hollow said...

Very sweet post in honoring mom. My dad passed Dec 2 of this past year...I'm nearing the one year anniv....I can sense feelings as like you today.

Allie said...

Yes - this is a bad time of year for me also - may the Lord continue to lift you up. Your strength lies in Him. I'm praying for you.

6p00e54ffa175d8834 said...

Oh this post made me cry. I'm so sorry you lost your mom so early. I'm glad you find comfort not only in your wonderful memories, but in the assurance that you'll see her again. x

Loralynn said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your Mother would be proud of you. I know how hard it has been for us to not have my Grandmother, I can't begin to know how difficult it has been for you. Blessings.

Mary on Lake Pulaski said...

Peace and hugs...

Lindsey said...

Just gorgeous.

Quilter Going Bananas said...

It's always hard losing a loved one, no matter how much time has gone by...Sending you hugs!

julia said...

What a gorgeous picture to go with such a heartfelt post. I'm sorry that you lost your mom at such a young age and that it was such a sudden happening. I fret over my mom so much now that she is getting older and having so many problems, but I am blessed to still have her.

fabricartist21 said...

One of my most favorite Bible verses. Yes if we wait with the Lord he will redeem our sorrow and we will all be together again.

Lis said...

You are in my prayers, love and hugs.

HOPE said...

Gorgeous picture to match your loving post. Twenty eight years ago I lost a son...I understand. God's Grace is sufficient and he brings this to our hearts each year as a reminder. Oh the joys of knowing one is awaiting us IN HEAVEN is a wonderful thought. Hold the sweet memories..you'll see her again.

God bless..
HOPE

Mary at Civilla's Cyber Cafe said...

The Lord works in mysterious ways and he took your relatives for a higher purpose, although my husband says that sometimes He is not happy with his creations and 'deletes' them. But for whatever purpose, we will meet them again in The Great Recycle Bin in the sky. Amen.

Darlene said...

Jocelyn-I'm sorry I missed this post yesterday! I'm just going to leave a little (hug).

Jacquelynne said...

Someone once said that when you lose your mom, it doesn't matter how old you are, you feel like an orphan. I can only imagine that is how you must feel. But we know that He "sets the lonely in families...." May you be comforted...

Pat said...

I didn't get to read all my favorite blogs yesterday so I'm just catching up with you today. Twenty years ago this past September, I lost my mom to cancer. She suffered a long, lingering death.....so...on one hand, it was a blessing to know she was no longer suffering. BUT...on the other hand, it has been hard on me as she hardly knew my youngest daughter and she never got to see her great-grandchildren....and those are things that continue to hurt my heart. I understand how you feel and my thoughts are very much with you.

Micki said...

Blessings to you! It is so hard to lose a parent!
Micki

Rebecca said...

I can't imagine losing my mother at a young age. :( Any age must be tough but to lose someone so special when there is so much life to still be lived must be especially devastating.

So happy you've had the comfort and love of the Lord to carry you along.

Thinking of you and rejoicing your Momma has spent the firs years of eternity in heaven.

xoRebecca

imquilternity said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you have wonderful memories to help sustain you.

Kim said...

I am glad to read that this day was uplifting. I'm sorry you have to be missing your mom. Lucky for me, I still have mine. :-)

Tonya's Sewing Room said...

So sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how it much feel.

Valerie said...

Oh I can't imagine what you feel. My prayers are with you always.

ivoryspring said...

What a sweet post, Jocelyn!

Kim D. said...

Lovely post Jocelyn, It's so difficult to lose your mom. I lost mine a year ago in June and I still miss her dearly.

Crispy said...

Oh Jocelyn, I feel your loss, my mother passed suddenly 9 years ago, but I still reach for the phone to call her.

Crispy

prairiemoonquilts said...

I know exactly how you feel, Jocelyn. My mother left suddenly, too, 41 years ago, leaving behind a newborn baby, my little sister, who never got to know her own mother. I still miss her every day. Her mother, my grandmother, raised us 4 kids from then on, and Grandma left in 2000 to go be with my mother. I miss her even more, but am grateful that I had time with both of them, however short it seemed. I am sorry that my mother never got to meet her grandchildren -- she would have been an awesome Grandma! I am sorry that my grandmother lost her only daughter way too soon. Time lessons the pain somewhat, and leaves behind sweet memories. Just be thankful for all the good memories that you do have, and know that she's watching you and would be very proud.